–the Only Mood everyone else knows about: i wanna do THIS and THIS and THIS and THIS and THIS and–SQUIRREL
–galaxy brain: i was listening to the lecture but the prof said something that reminded me of something else and now i’m not sure how much time i was lost in thought
–the tutorial only comes in video format: i’m sorry, but you’ve thrown off the emperor’s groove *hurls product & its tutorial video into the sun*
–damn you hyperfocus: i went to bed intending to wake up and write but this morning i was possessed by a cleanliness spirit and spent the next 14 hours organizing the apartment
–i dont think u tried at all.jpg: did i seriously spend an entire free day refreshing twitter b/c i didn’t want to spend 10 minutes finishing my hw but wouldn’t let myself do anything else until i finished it???? (yes)
–patrick star: *unlocks phone* time to check the weather. *opens twitter* the weather. *opens messenger* the weather. *opens mobage game* the weather. *opens facebook* the weather. *opens twitter again* THE WEA–
–smells like depression: literally everything is too boring. i’m going back to sleep
tadhdfw every friend turns into a mom friend around you
usually i laugh it off because it can be hilarious (being mom-ed by a 6′ 3″ frat bro who’s younger than you is a trip yo) but sometimes it just… really wears on me.
people with adhd are still adults even if we don’t always seem like it. and sometimes we act goofy and chill because if we didn’t, we’d lose it over always being treated like a child. which really really sucks.
so sometimes your character may ignore well-meant advice because THEY AREN’T ACTUALLY A CHILD DAMNIT and that can throw all kinds of conflict into personal relationships and such.
CBC made a good documentary on adult ADHD and part of it really caught me off guard because i swear they repeated verbatim my life story for the past 3 years
My ADHD manifested in excellent in-class work. Excellent understanding in discussions. Excellent participation.
My ADHD manifested in piles of homework left undone until the last possible minute, while I stared at them, thinking; “I want to get these done. I understand the theory. It would take 10 minutes. I want to start, why can’t I start?”
My ADHD manifested in fantastic reading comprehension – nigh impenetrable focus on interesting topics the first time I’m reading about them.
My ADHD manifested in a complete inability to focus on reviews or re-reads, mind skittering sideways and away whenever anything was boring or repetitive. I sat down to study, my books open, my eyes on the text, and my brain clawing its way out the back of my head to focus on something else – anything else. Focus, focus! [No.]
My ADHD manifested in Articulating wings half-finished but still beautiful, in beautiful lineart and half-hearted coloring. In stories written passionately for days until I forgot it existed and never returned. In projects started and forgotten and started and forgotten a thousand times until my bins of project supplies piled up and my bank account shriveled down. No, it will be different this time – I LOVE this new thing. This new thing is my world, my destiny, my Everything. I CREATE and CREATE and CREATE and never FINISH.
My ADHD manifested in confusion and surprise as time slithered away, hours passing like minutes and minutes seeming endless by contrast. An inability to gauge how much time had passed, was left, a task would take. An inability to hold dates in my head, because time didn’t feel consistent or even real.
My ADHD manifested in watching someone talk and not understanding a word they said – literally hearing sounds and translating out only nonsense. In thoughts so loud I couldn’t speak coherently. In a conversation across the room shattering an idea I was trying to hold. It’s hard to think when you’re already thinking about everything around you.
– there is a tab open. this tab has been open for hours. you have only just now become aware of its continued existence. “why is this tab still open?” you ask, as you stare at it in confusion. why was the tab open in the first place. you will never know
– you need to get up and get that water bottle from the other room
– time is an illusion. it warps around you. 15 minutes pass every time you blink. you swear it was a reasonable time minutes ago. how does this keep happening.
– time is not an illusion, time is painfully real. time is frustratingly real. time is passing right now. precious seconds are slipping out of your grasp. you cannot get anything done, you are paralyzed by the passage of time. when will this end
– you need to get up and get that water bottle from the other room
– you’re trying to do something but you keep noticing Something out of the corner of your eye. it needs to be picked up. it Needs to be picked up. you are trying so hard to ignore it, you cannot focus on the thing you are trying to do.
– six seconds ago you knew what you were doing. you stand there, incapable of coherent thought. what is in your hand. where are you. what is life. you walk away, still unsure of what just happened. two minutes later you wonder why you never did that thing you needed to do…
– you need to get up and get that water bottle from the other room
– what’s that noise? oh it’s just the reminder you set. but you’re in the middle of something you can’t tend to that now – and it’s the next day. the reminder is still there. it is judging you. you didn’t do it. even your reminders have failed you. is anything left.
– why are you so thirsty? oh.
– you need to get up and get that water bottle from the other room.
– you never get up and get that water bottle from the other room
its really weird to see all these articles about how people who have ADHD have sleeping problems but the issue I have is that if you look at it as a matter of your circadian rythym being out of sync? of COURSE you’re not going to be able to sleep. we don’t say people who can’t fall asleep at 4 pm and sleep 8 hours have insomnia, because that’s not a normally agreed upon time to sleep and its not your bodies time to sleep. if you tell someone to go to bed at 10 and they can’t sleep till 3 am sometimes in just not insomnia. people with ADHD are often wired to sleep from 4 am to 12 pm ish because of the delayed onset of melatonin but if you let us go to bed at the time we need? most of us actually sleep pretty well and consistently.
wAIT THIS IS AN ACTUAL THING THAT EXISTS
“For most adults the onset of melatonin is around 9.30 pm; in ADHD children compared to controls this occurs at least 45 minutes later, and in adults with ADHD even 90 minutes (van der Heijden ea, 2005; van Veen ea 2010). After melatonin onset, it normally takes 2 hours to fall asleep, but in adults with ADHD it takes at least 3 hours (Bijlenga et al, 2013).”
Look at me awake at 1:47 am and reblogging this post.
So I’m actually trained in therapy for addressing insomnia and one of the things we learned is that a good chunk of sleep problems are societal disorders – as in they WOULDN’T EXIST as problems if society didn’t assume everyone was on the same circadian rhythm and that being up and working 9-5 was mandatory/normal. Blew my mind and made so much sense. You are not the problem, society is literally the problem.
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